I’ve gotten to the point where I feel like I don’t even exist anymore. I just want to die„ and I can’t stand myself??
I don’t like existing like a lot of the time I’m not even sure if my body is mine??? Like sometimes I have to dig into my skin to make sure I’m alive and I exist and it’s fucking weird as hell.
I feel rly gross bc i just puked up all the food i ate. My eating disorder has been getting rly bad lately and i just hhh don’t wanna deal with it oops
kissing bunb is the most comical shit because i have bigger lips than her and i usually wear some sort of lipstick so i always leave a lipstick mark around her entire mouth
AHHHHHHH LOOK AT ROSE USING BRIGHTLY COLOR MAGIC LOOK AT THAT BABE NOT USING THE POWERS OF HORROR TERRORS LOOK AT THAT HOTTIE FINALLY TAPPING INTO THE LIGHT AND USING IT TO FUCK UP AN ABUSIVE CLOWNS DUMBASS LOOK AT THAT ROSE LOOK AT HER
Yeah let’s talk about this more because it is so important and wonderful.
Rose’s arc, since the intermission has been about dealing with the things that happened to her. Since we first heard she might be with kanaya in the walkthough with meenah, I saw comments in the rose tag- I’m so happy for her, but will her character just stay the same, she seems to have resoled everything.
But she didn’t. We’ve seen very little of Rose’s perspective, but we can infer some of the things that were bothering her over the course of the meteor trip:
- She beat herself up heavily over being manipulated by the terrors/doc scratch and no longer trusted herself in a position of power or authority.
- She blamed herself for the death of her mother.
- She is significantly more isolated: dave is difficult to talk to because of freudian slips and his simular passive nature, karkat is a veritable stranger, terezi & gamzee are inexplicable, and she wants to be the most impressive person she can be around Kanaya.
Rose is a seer, which is a passive aspect, and we haven’t seen Rose be passive much before the intermission. But all throughout, she took the path of least resistance- it was easier to drink than to confront her feelings or really work on their plan for LE. It was easier to dismiss gamzee & terezi’s relationship as normal blackrom than to step up as an auspitice and do something. All this because she doesn’t want to be responsible and take charge anymore. She’s sick of screwing up, and as an intelligent girl, I imagine she has very high standards for herself and a definition of success- if she percieves herself as not being able to meet them, it’s easier to just not try at all.
It was also easier for her to just not touch magic AT ALL, even though there were spell-books and alchemeters on the meteor, I’m pretty sure she made this on her own land just before she flew up. (At first I thought it might be based on eridan’s hope-wand, but she probably found a needle in her house). This wand is embedded with powers of light, (sidenote: it looks a bit like a rose stem, which makes me grin) fortune, strength, intelligence.
So yeah, Rose is stepping up and recovering from a downward spiral, (hopefully to help her fellow seer recover too) using her own strength to confront issues head-on and it is fucking beautiful.